Bye Baby
I don’t know you yet ---
They say I’ll be able to have another when I’m older, and ready to handle the extra stress
I haven’t seen you yet ----
They say you’re just a speck of tissue, you can’t feel, or see, or reason, it’s a safe procedure - I’ll be home for supper, only a little discomfort, only for a day or two --- then, I’ll go on with my life, like nothing happened.
I haven’t told anyone yet ------
Not Mom n Dad, not even “him” - he’s not ready to deal with this - we aren’t even going steady - not really… I like him, I do, but we can’t bring something this serious to our new relationship - he’d get mad, then, I’d be alone.
… well yes, you can talk to me about it, but don’t expect me to change my mind. I’ve talked with other girls that have gone thru the same thing, they did it on Friday, and were back in school Monday - don’t have to tell parents, don’t have to pay - they’ll help with everything…..
…Ok, I’ll have the ultra-sound - just to make sure everything’s ok for the procedure -
Really? I didn’t know you can hear the heart-beat this early…
Really? I didn’t know the brain is processing already…
Really? My baby can move those little fingers and toes? It isn’t just tissue?
It isn’t just a mistake? It isn’t the only way to deal with this? I’m NOT alone?
I’ve needed someone to talk to, someone to help me make choices, give suggestions - I didn’t know where to turn, I’m so glad I came here. I’m ready to go now, ready to make a fresh start, make some of my 1st life-long decisions -
Oh Baby, I almost ended our relationship - just as it’s beginning. I still don’t have all the answers, I’m not sure where we’ll be in 6 months. I might not be able to stay with your dad, but I’m gonna stay with you!
