Mar 11, 2011
I’ve got a Mom, Dad, two sisters, tw brothers, dogs, - no cat - sometimes I wonder where my REAL Mom is at.
Does she have blue eyes or green, does she like to wear a hat?
I just want to know stuff like that.
I remember…… least I think I really do, about my first Mom & Dad and a big dog too.
Some days I feel angry, or just left out -
Mom says she understands when I yell or pout.
I love my family, that I’m sure, its just when I was young is all a blur.
I really don’t remember what the house looked like, or my favorite toy, or playin in the yard, or feeling like a little boy.
Mom doesn’t have pictures of me as a baby, so if she doesn’t know, everything is just maybe…
I don’t know if I loved her as much as I should - and if she loved me, was I just not good?
Where did she go when she left me? Did she cry all day? Do I have brothers and sisters that live far away?
Sometimes I just want to know.
Mom told me its ok, maybe I’ll find out when I’m older, but come on, I’m 11 - I’m way past her shoulder!
Kalamazoo, or California, its all the same. I’d look for them if only I knew their name…
For now, I just have to know I’ve got Mom and Dad’s love, and a place to call mine.
They’re family enough, we’ll be just fine J
